[Delayed Response:] Wow, I can't believe it's been something like four months since I last posted on my livejournal. o.o; I mean, I know I'm lazy, but really! *face palm* Feel free to smack me around in revenge if you like. :)

Anyway, I just wanted to let you all know that I'm still alive, still around (always, even if I'm mostly lurking now), and always available if you need to contact me or something. You can reach me through email (recommended), twitter, private messages, tumblr, instant messaging, and much more.

[Epic Recs:] For a long time I've been using the awesome reccing community epic_recs whenever I was in the mood for awesome fic and was too lazy to look for it myself. Now, years later, I'm actually a part of the community (I'll link you to my tag when I get one)! ♥ Starting today, you'll be able to see me reccing fic there every Tuesday! I rec Stargate: Atlantis, Supernatural (Sam/Dean, possibly Jared/Jensen), Harry Potter (Snape/Harry) and possible some small fandoms.

[Fandom Tattoos:] Here's some old-ish, but significant news: I got my first tattoo (see image below) not too far back and it was a fandom related one-- Harry Potter to be exact. I got it on my foot and let me tell you that hurt like HELL. XD No fat or muscle, just skin and bone? Ouch! On that note, I'm proud to report that I didn't cry and apparently did really good-- though, my leg kept twitching so if the lines look shaky, that's my fault.

One a slightly more depressing note, my foot proceeded to immediately become infected thereafter and thus began a long, swollen, painful process of healing the damn thing. Now that everything is said and done, however, I must admit that I'm quite proud of it and it's now my favorite part of my body. I'm already considering what I'm gonna get next!

For my second tattoo... hm, I'm not sure. I know I've going to get a stargate on my stomach (to cover the scar from surgery) eventually. I want to get a Dragon Age tattoo on the back of my neck. I'd like to get a really elegant Dumbledore quote, but I think it's too long... ;__; I'm planning on a Star Trek one eventually... Geez, look at me! One tattoo and already I want more, more, more! So greedy! xD



[Life/Career:] These days I'm volunteering for GLO (a re-entry program that helps ex-convicts back into society) until they become stabilized enough with the medicare and medicaid that they're able to pay me-- I've already signed a contract.

In the meantime I've not been doing much else that's particularly relevant. I had a nasty reaction to some medication (damn doctor, he KNEW how I'd react-- it's the last straw! I will NEVER being going back there) and ended up in the hospital for about a week, but other than that I've been reading fic, reccing fic, playing video games, contemplating NaNoWriMo (I signed up, but I don't think I'll be able to finish on time), and watching stuff (I really like ABC's new Once Upon A Time!).

Hey everyone. Sorry it's been so long since I've posted anything. It's been... well, depressing. I've been busy looking for a job, but economy sucks. In between that (and hanging with Mama), I've been obsessively playing Dragon Age and immersing myself entire in the game.

So much so, in fact, that I've begun commissioning artwork for it! ♥ I'll post links to them when I get the final versions. :) Fenris and Zevran, my boys! ♥

Note: In both Dragon Age 1 and 2, you can romance other characters regardless of most sexual orientations-- yes, that means gay, straight, and lesbian. --There's even a chaste (sexless) relationship in Dragon Age 2. ♥

Opening Summary about Dragon Age (Origins): The Chantry teaches us that it is the hubris of men which brought the darkspawn into our world. The mages had sought to usurp Heaven. But instead, they destroyed it. They were cast out, twisted and cursed by their own corruption. They returned as monsters, the first of the darkspawn. They became a blight upon the lands, unstoppable and relentless. The dwarven kingdoms were the first to fall. And from the deep roads, the darkspawn drove at us again and again, until finally we neared annihilation... until the Grey Wardens came. Men and women from every race, warriors and mages, barbarians and kings, the Grey Wardens sacrificed everything to stem the tide of darkness, and prevailed. It has been four centuries since that victory, and we have kept our vigil. We have watched and waited for the darkspawn to return. But those, who once called us heroes, have forgotten. We are few now, and our warnings have been ignored for too long. It may even be too late, for I have seen with my own eyes what lies upon the horizon. Maker help us all.

I just found out my mom is dying.

Hey guys! Sorry I'm so late to deliver this promised batch of Glee icons. *hangs head in shame* I lost my motivation somewhere along the way and it was bitch trying to find it again... well, until last night's episode. xD Ordinarily, I'm very disapproving of drinking alcohol just to get drunk but... it didn't bother me in last night's episode, oddly enough. Actually, I really liked the episode a lot! It motivated me to finish this batch of icons! \o/ Yay, Glee!

The majority of Glee icons in this post are generalized and not focused on any specific ship or pairing. I did, however, mark off a section for Karofsky/Kurtofsky because it is my OTP (despite the fact that there's only 18 icons for them), though. :)

Oh yeah! Please feel free to request a specific icon in the comments below. ♥ I'll make it for you! >D The only rule is that you don't request more than 2 icons per post (unless I give you permission to do otherwise, obviously). ^^


( Click here to view the icons! )

Well, first things first: I finally broke down and got myself a TUMBLR account! :D Please add me if you have one (and let me know it's you so I can add you back)! ♥

So, after the Super Bowl episode of Glee, I found that I'd finally gained a favorite character! ♥ Before this, I'd watched Glee and loved it, but none of the characters fit into my specific favorite trope: The JerkAss Woobie (warning: TV Tropes). No, seriously, I've noticed that almost every single one of my most favorite characters fits this trope perfectly. I'm slightly worried about it. xD

Anyway, directly after the episode, "Never Been Kissed", I found myself somewhat infatuated with Karofsky. Unfortunately, his actions after that episode vaguely creeped me out and it wasn't until the Super Bowl episode that I could finally get a good feel of him. I loved what I saw. I've been obsessing over this boy ever since then! xD So, it probably shouldn't come as a surprise that I made icons! :D

I'll warn everyone right now. Most of these icons are of Karofsky. There are a few of regular Glee members and perhaps one or two Kurtofsky ones... I had actually intended (and I still do) to make more icons then this, but... Well, the afternoon I created them, I received some bad news that killed my motivation. The ending result was that everything I tried to make after that point was complete shit. So, I just finished up for the night. There should be more generalized Glee ones later. Probably. ^^;



( Click here to check out the icons! )

Note: I'm aware that there are a lot of people out there that absolutely hate Karofsky (and the idea of Kurtofsky). I'm sorry that it makes you uncomfortable, but I honestly don't think he's as horrible as most are making him out to be (see the first link below)-- he's just misguided and scared (check out the second link below). I absolutely do not condone or consider any of the bullying he's done to be acceptable in any sense of the word. Merely, I'm trying to say that he's a teenager and we all make mistakes.

I honestly don't care whether Karofsky/Kurt ever happens in the show (although, that would be a lovely bonus if it's handled appropriately). What I want to see in Glee, more than anything, is Dave Karofsky finding redemption and learning to not only accept, but love who he is. That's right, people, I ship Karofsky/HAPPINESS. ♥

A few interesting Meta articles about Karofsky:

The Worst Human Being in the History of Ever and Why He's Probably Not

A New Way To View The Locker Room Incident

As of lately, I've become obsessed with re-watching Xena: Warrior Princess. I can't even begin to describe just how much I honestly love that show! It's campy, completely unrealistic, and so full of gay that I can hardly contain myself.

Not to mention that my number one favorite femslash ship? Xena/Gabrielle, of course! My first slash ship? Ares/Joxer (don't judge me!) and Cupid/Strife.

Speaking of Cupid... Are you Star Trek (reboot) fans aware that Karl Urban (the actor who played McCoy in the 2009 Star Trek movie) played Cupid on Xena? Yeah, that's right. Mr. Snarky was all dressed up in a scantily clad outfit equipped with wings. Want to see what it looked like? Come on in and find out! ^.~



( Check out Karl Urban (McCoy) in his Cupid outfit! :) )

NOTE: If you're one of the few Xena fans out there and you feel I've left out one of your favorite characters (or you simply have a Xena-related picture you've been wanting for an icon), feel free to ask me to make one for you! I'd be most appreciative if you provided a link for the picture you'd like me to use. x3

[ACE MANIFESTO PROJECT:] After a long extended break from writing (it's been 9 months! NINE! OMG, that's horrible!), I've tentatively decided that I'd like to start writing again because I really miss it. Writing fic was fun and I loved doing it (despite how frustrating it sometimes was to get the words out). Unfortunately, I've gotten pretty rusty at it *face palm* and I'm usually unsatisfied with my results.

So, I've decided to start with something smaller! I'm going to participate in the Ace Manifesto Project from asexual_fandom at DW. \O/

Now, as many of you already know (or don't, if we chat rarely), I'm a panromantic asexual. So, the idea of the aforementioned Manifesto (and of an asexual fandom in general) is absolutely superb to me. >w< *flails excitedly* So, here's an excerpt to explain the challenge:

Okay, guys, I apologize for it looking like I went AWOL and was never heard of again on here. The reason I've been so AWOL here is because I was posting frequently on LJ and then, eventually, on Dreamwidth. I'm sorry for all the neglect my non-existant friends!

If you're curious to hear about what's gone down during the time I haven't been posting here, feel free to use the links above to satiate your curiosity!

Oh, and never fear! This blog will be updated from now on. I've learned how to utilize DW's cross-posting ability and suddenly my life is SO much easier now! :) Yay!

I was planning on copy and pasting all the entries I'd neglected to post here, but when I ended up going back more than 15 pages on my LJ to find the entry I left off on... well, let's just say that amount is a bit too intimidating for me right now when I'm only running on 2 hours of sleep from the last two days! :)

Anyway, I'm sure none of you even really noticed I was gone, but hopefully I'll be able to use this blog to it's fullest from now on. :)

Okay, this is definitely not going to be a long post or anything. I just wanted to take a moment to advertise a community I made awhile ago.

It's called vamp_opheliac and it was made so we'd have a place to put all of our co-written fanfiction. Who's we? When I say we, I am referring to myself and wolflikeme1!

A few months ago we put our heads together and decided we were going to write a Kirk/Spock fanfic together. Not just any Kirk/Spock fanfic, but an epic one featuring mpreg. <3 The fic is going to be huge- at least 50,000 words with the good possibility of a sequel in it's future. xD I'm also going to make some manips, commission some art, make a soundtrack, wallpaper, icons and a podfic for it. I'm still working on it's layout too. After we finish those, we're probably going to be working on other ones (of different fandoms, possibly).

( Read the summary for the Kirk/Spock fic... )

You can't read anything on it yet (we do have some of the fanfic up there but it's friendslocked right now. We don't intend to release it until it's either completed or mostly completed. Sorry. If you're interested, though, feel free to watch the community and find out when it's been opened on your flist. <3 You can also wait for me to post here and advertise / tell you that it's been opened too, I suppose. xP Either way, heads up.

Has anyone else heard of this relatively new anime / webcast? *beams* I love it so much it hurts. It's HILARIOUS. <3

What's it about? Well... think back to your high school days in History class. Now remember the Axis Powers? Okay, now add parody anime into the equation. ^___^ Make sure the parody contains humanoid versions of each country where their stereotypes make up their personality. What do we have?

Italy = Very weak, always gives up, obsessed with pasta, an artist (and singer).

America = Always wants to be the hero, constantly eating burgers, worried about his weight.

Japan = Very polite guy, answers are ambiguous but always mean "no."

( Click here to find out about more characters! )

And so on and so forth. There are a LOT of countries in this show and each of them are hilariously endearing. <3 The best (or possibly the saddest) thing is, each episode is only 5 minutes long- so all of you should have small amount of time put aside to at least give it a try. ^___^

( Click here to watch a short (5 min) episode! )
So, what do you think? <3 (Also, sorry for poorish quality- I tried to upload mine but it was missing the subtitle track. DX)

[ADVERTISEMENT:] So, I have a really cool friend, right? Her name is wolflikeme1. And she came up with this really cool idea (which was inspired by someone else's rather nifty idea). ^___^ So, she made a community (slash_fangirls) for it on LJ. What type of community? Well, I'm glad you asked! Basically, it's for people to review a fandom show (and the extent of slash within it). I think it's a pretty neat idea, actually. <3

So, basically, you should all pop on over and join. And review. And comment about it. <3 We would love to hear your input, if you don't mind. xP

[BIRTHDAY:] Yeah, because I like to hear the sound of my own voice (er... text?), I'm going to shout it out again (what? I'm excited!). MY BIRTHDAY IS IN TWO DAYS- this Friday! *beams* XD I'll be 21! <3

Also, for a moment of outrage! I just received a birthday card in the mail from my family. And the letter was basically open when I got it. =/ So, I called them up and apparently they'd put $50 in it and someone stole it before it even got to me. ASSHOLES. D< WTF? SERIOUSLY. *rages*

[JOB TEST THING:] A couple days ago, I had to go in and take this bizarre (in my opinion) test to try out for a job interview. I passed but I thought it was really weird. There was almost 200 questions featuring yourself (like: do you ever use people and take advantage of them? or: do you often have trouble controlling your rage?). Seriously, wtf? Do you really think I'm going to admit it to you if I really am a manipulative little bitch with anger management issues (hello, manipulative!)? o.O

[FANDOM:] So, actually, I'm reading this really amazing McShep fanfic! It's called Aegis and it's written by leahwoof. It's actually really long (like 90k) but it's really good. I knew it would be because I've read a lot of their fics before (I really love the robot!verse). If you like interesting plots and McShep, you should definitely check out this fic. <3

( Click here to read the summary for Aegis... )

[BIRTHDAY:] Yeah, so, MY BIRTHDAY IS IN 7 DAYS! :D Yay! I'll be 21 years old. It's the last big birthday I'll probably ever be proud of celebrating. <3

I told my Grandparents that I wanted a new external hard drive for my birthday. I want one that holds a terrabyte of space. The one I have currently holds 450 gig and while that sounds like a lot of space, it actually really isn't. I've been running out of space on that thing for months. I keep having to delete things off it that I haven't wanted to delete. ;__; Ah well, hopefully that will change. <3 *excited*

I think they may also be getting me a new mouse for my laptop (the black one from here) because my Grandma keeps following me around with a coupon for them and asking me which one I liked most... in a way that wasn't really very subtle. xD I love my Grandma. <3

Also, I'm looking forward to getting to find out what wine tastes like. I've never had it before and I've always wondered. I don't think I'm going to like it, actually, and I have no intention then trying more then a sip or two. I'm just curious and now that I'm of legal age to find out, I'd like to know. Does anyone have any suggestions about which wines they like best? Something sweet, maybe?

[LAYOUT:] Also, did anyone notice the change of layout? >W< I was bored with the last one so I decided to get a new one. The actual layout itself is from gawariel_design! She makes really cool layouts. <3 I basically just changed around the header and footer image. <3 I spent just a little bit of time on it, so, it's not really very great or anything... but I like it. Also? The header image isn't permanent. I'm currently commissioning an artist for a Kirk/Spock image and I intend to use it on the layout. <3 The image with Snape and two girls in the header image is another pic I commissioned once upon a time. ^___^ I'm the one with the multi-colored hair. So, anyway, what do you think?

[EXCUSES:] *winces, gives a shifty look and shuffles in* How sad is it that I've been trying to motivate myself to update my LJ for almost two and a half weeks now? I think it's really sad. DX Even now I don't know how much I'm really going to write here cause I don't really feel like it. DX Ugh, depression, really now?

[HARRY POTTER MOVIE:] So, yeah, I saw the new Harry Potter movie a few days after it came out with Jessey! (YAY! JESSEY!). The movie wasn't bad (I liked it certain aspects of it better then the book because, as Jessey pointed out, the book is way too full of that mindless teenage angst.) but more often then not, it felt like it was completely rushed. Whoever was supposed to add the transitions from one scene to another FAILED pretty huge on that. It was really confusing sometimes. One moment Harry would be talking to Ron and Hermione and the next he'd be standing in front of Dumbledore's desk and talking to him. I think that the movie would have been nearly impossible to grasp (at least some of the important aspects) if I hadn't read the book.

( Find out more about the HP movie and Snape... )

[RANDOM FANDOMS:] While Jessey was here, she also got me into a few new fandoms. What are those shows? Simple: Farscape, the Invisible Man and Batman! xD LOL. Jessey is amazing. Eddie, a friend of mine, has been trying to convince me to watch Farscape (I'm really stubborn at getting into new things) for almost a year now. Jessey comes in and it takes her days.

( Check out the new fandoms I'm into... )

[MISHA COLLINS:] I don't know how much any of you know about this guys, but Misha Collins is incredible. I have no doubt that he is my all time favorite actor. Some of you may be aghast. Me? Liking someone more then Alan Rickman or David Hewlett?! The fact remains the same- I do. Why? Because this guy has the most vibrant personality (dude, seriously) I've seen among actors. He's fascinating, weird, silly, and really intelligent. He surpasses the other actors because he does what none of the others do. He actually communicates with his fans. No, I don't mean like talking to them at conventions or giving out autographs.

( Discover what makes Misha so special... )

I had a lot of fun during the two weeks Jessey spent here with me. <3 I was a little bit disappointed that I didn't get to spend as much time with her as I'd been hoping to but I completely understood why so it wasn't a problem. She did actually spend more than half the time she was here with me so I know I don't have any reason to complain. xD So ignore me, please!

I think both Jessey and I were severely irritated when we went along with my Grandparent's to a trip to Dayton (or however that damn city is pronounced). We were both under the impression that she and I would get our own room (as opposed to having to share one with my Grandparents and little brother) and that we'd actually be allowed to go places while they were out checking out their car show. No such luck. DX No, we weren't even allowed to cross the street to get lunch (so we ended up spending $40 on room service to get the three of us- including my brother- a small meal). I started going stir crazy after the first day and a half of being locked inside. =/ That really really sucked (we were barely ever even alone so we had to be careful of what we were saying- it was like being smothered). Needless to say I was not being very nice by the end of that trip.

On the plus side, during the last day there, we all went to Cosi (that's what the pic at the top of the entry is from). That was pretty cool. We were even able to split up and go off on our own to talk and check the place out. We took many pictures and had a lot of fun with it. <3 I like the space black hole thing. xD That was AWESOME and it made me so dizzy. It looked pretty cool too so it's to bad the video I took of it doesn't work. X3 My favorite place there was definitely the two streets that were supposed to have taken place in the past. That was amazing and the phones were hilarious.

Below are some pics of our time there and all the horrible (awesomely) fun we had there. Enjoy them as we did! <3

( Click here to go and view the pictures... )

After we got back home from Cosi (and rested up), we spent the rest of our time going out and doing things (as well as Jessey getting me into new fandoms!). XD It was really fun and I got to practice my driving a lot so now I don't feel quite as nervous about driving as I used to (because I'm a hermit who never leaves the house -.-). xD Anyway, I love spending time with Jessey and I hope I get the opportunity to do it again soon.

[MY QUESTION:] So... I'm curious. *sketchy look* Are there any relatively good TV Shows out there featuring the two of the main characters in a gay or lesbian relationship- that's not a cartoon? o.o Cause, I might be convinced to watch that. *nod nod* It could be cute. :D

[JESSEY:] OMFG! YAY! Jessey, my best friend from Maryland that I've known almost my entire life, has finally arrived! *squee* She came in yesterday and it's so fun. Cool thing about the two of us is that no matter how much time passes, we always click and it's like no time at all. >w< She's the only person it's like that with. :D It's been so long since I've laughed this much or had so much fun. Probably since the last time I was with her. She's also the only person out there who's so similar and different from me. We have almost all the same interests- hell, she's the one who got me into anime & manga, slash & yaoi, and... well, made me into who I am! :D *glomps her* She's freaking awesome. <3

So, I'm gonna be able to have some free time to spend online for the next couple of days. Since I was... err... sort of unclear about where we were going and how long we'd been there, I sort of threw her off track. >.< Oops. I sort of forgot to ask. xD SORRY JESSEY. XD You love me anyway, despite how brainless I am. xP So, she's going to be spending a good deal of the next few days with her brother to make up for it. ^__^

Fanfic Title: Where All Paths Lead
Fanfic Author: tracy_loo_who 
Pairing: Dean/Castiel
Rating: R
Fanfic Summary: Castiel will fall in love with Dean, and Uriel is the first to know.

( Click here to get the download link! )

[LAPTOP PROBLEMS:] Well, today I'll be turning in my laptop to the Geek Squad for a few days so they can fix it. I don't know all of what's wrong with it, but last time I was there they DID confirm that there was some hardware damage (which is why my screen flicks black randomly when I move it sometimes- where I have to shut the lid and open it to get it to go back to normal). Also, it's still isn't charging so... that's not good. I think I fixed the internet problem though... DX It sucks though cause they had me make a little computer problem blog and 7/8ths of it was about the internet so now I feel like I'm starting from square one again. I'm really gonna miss my laptop and I'm really gonna miss the internet. ;__;

On the plus side, I've spent the last two days downloading dozens of Big Bang fics to read! :D So, I'll really be able to catch up on that and have a good deal of recs to point you towards by the time I have the net again. :3 Unless, you know, I procrastinate and don't get anything done in my free time. I do that sometimes. DX

[JESSEY:] I can not, for the life of me, remember if I've told anyone this yet. Jessey, the amazing, awesome friend of mine from Maryland that I went to visit some months back, is coming to visit me!! >W< She'll be here on either the 4th or the 5th of July and she'll be staying for two weeks. *squee* I'm so excited!! :D I haven't seen her in forever and she'll be here so soon. We're going to have so much fun fangirling and doing... things. I'm not sure what since this city sucks and there's nothing in it. o.o Anyway, I probably won't be around much on the net for the two weeks following the 4th / 5th of July. Sorry!

[LJ LAYOUT:] Hmm, so, I've still been considering redoing my layout... adding some current fandoms to it an all. :3 It's definitely something I want to do but for some reason I can't even strike up the motivation to do it! DX Which really really sucks, actually. I used to be able to at least do that even when I was depressed. I guess now I've just gotten so depressed I can't even bring myself to do it. ;__;

[RANDOM:] Also, I was wondering... Why aren't there any Dean/Castiel Big Bang fics yet? I see a whole bunch of fics for this pairing pouring out of the fandom... and the spn_j2_bigbang has other pairings besides Wincest and JSquared (granted, that is the main pairing). I guess I'm just curious because I really do love that pairing. I'd love to read a Dean/Castiel Big Bang fic. xD

Okay, so, just because I really really love this fic, I cannot resist in posting a rec for it (actually, I'll probably edit this post tomorrow and add a few more recs to my favorite JSquared (J2) fics:

Lost and Found by mediaville - Jensen Ackles is a shy, overweight songwriter whose body issues have prevented him from forming any real personal connections, and at thirty, he’s still unsure of his sexuality, and still a virgin. But when he signs up for an experimental obesity research program, he meets Jared Padalecki, a stunningly sexy fitness guru who slowly but surely changes Jensen’s life. [Jared/Jensen]

( Click to view the rest of the recs )

[FRUSTRATION:] So, about 4-5 days ago I was going to update my LJ with a long post about what I'd been up to, new fandoms I'd gotten into, some of my recent computer problems, etc. And, well... I spent a lot of time working on it. One of my said computer problems ended up freezing the browser though and I lost ALL of it. I'm so stupid! I should have remembered to save it periodically on a notepad document like a I usually do. DX *head desk* After I lost all of it, I was too pissed off to even consider rewriting it and promptly ignored LJ for a few days. >.>; I'm just lame like that. x3 But now I'm willing to try again! :D

[LJ LAYOUT:] Well, I've been getting bored with my current layout. So, for awhile now I've been considering working on the graphics for a new one. Especially since this one gives me problems when I post and I've only just noticed how hard it actually is to read when all the colors are so dark (sadly, I prefer dark colors to light so much more). I think I'm still going to stick with the same idea I had then though. I'm going to combine a whole bunch of my current fandoms into the header image and try to make it look pretty.

( NEW FANDOMS! )

[RANDOM:] Oh, so, Jessey is coming to visit me sometime soon (near the end of the month). She'll be here for 2-3 weeks and I'm so excited! I can't wait. I only get to see her maybe once or twice a year and she's my best friend. XD So, I'll probably be busy while she's around (cause I'll totally be spending all of my time with her having fun and talking about slash and going places). When I get the actual dates, I'll put them up so everybody know. :D GUH! So excited! >w< Jessey, Jessey, Jessey! 

Finally, I know I should but I really don't want to scroll back up on this entry and proofread everything to make sure I don't have typos. So, for once, I'm not going to. I choose to be lazy instead. xD Sorry for any mistakes you stumble across.

( COMPUTER PROBLEMS! )